Questioning Everything

One learns about themselves by questioning themselves. I'm here to learn.

Monday, August 6, 2018

Naked for Charity

Question:

An eccentric millionaire offers to donate a large sum of money to a charity if you will step naked from a car on a busy downtown street, walk four blocks, then climb back into the car.  Knowing that there would be no danger of physical abuse, would you do it?


Okay, so ... this says that there is no danger of physical abuse.  How about legal issues?   And, how large of a sum?   To which charity?  These are things I would need to know.  If I have the potential to wind up with some sort of criminal charges/record (especially if it was listed as a sexual crime), then no.   Do I get to pick the charity for this money to go to? I'm also not going to if it's not going to a charity I would actually pick.  Especially since I would have to deal with the verbal abuse, and whatever other consequences might apply.

Now, if I would get in absolutely no trouble at all, mentally or physically or legally.... and I got to chose where it went-  then sure. 

Thursday, December 6, 2012

Oops... This Beach is Nude!

If you went to a beach, and it turned out to be a nude beach, would you stay and go swimming?  Would you get nude?

I would totally stay.  Why not?  As for whether or not I myself might get nude, that really depends on the types of people who are there, and how I'm feeling about myself that day.   Today?  Probably not.  Other days, I feel good and probably would.  I'd probably at least be okay removing my top.  I don't know.  

Wednesday, November 14, 2012

Same Sex

Question:

How would you react if you were to learn that your mate had had a lover of the same sex before you knew each other?


Answer:

I would be hurt that they did not trust me enough to tell me this sooner, but the knowledge would have no impact on how I felt about them and our relationship.  I don't view same-sex partnering or relationships as anything "bad" or "negative".   I would view it as any other relationship they've had.  As long as I do not need to worry about them cheating on me, with a man or a woman, then I'm okay. 

As a  matter of fact, I usually tell my partners that they are allowed to have sexual relations with another man.  LOL.  It is usually viewed as humorous, but I'm there is an element of truth to it.  If they are sexually attracted to another man, there is no competition there for me.  That is something I cannot give them.  As long as they take the necessary precautions to assure that I am not going to be harmed (ie: STDs), then go for it.  Just make sure I know about it.  Heck, we can just invite him along.  The only time it will bother me is if they decided to leave me for him.  However, again, that is something that I cannot provide, and if that is what they want in life, then who am I to stand in the way of that?




(The Book of Questions by Gregory Stock)

Wednesday, November 7, 2012

Fatal Medicine

Question:

   If a new medicine were developed that would cure arthritis but cause a fatal reaction in 1% of those who took it, would you want it released to the public?


Answer:

Yes I would, but with the strict requirement that anyone choosing to take it is fully aware of the risk.  I think that every drug out there comes with a risk.  Hell, every THING out there does.  Any new item you come in contact with has the possibility of creating a severe allergic reaction.  Anything can cause the body to react in a way that is not expected.  Our bodies are crazy machines, and you never know what could happen.

I think that the patient should be aware of the potential deadly consequence, and then he or she can then decide whether or not the pain is severe enough that it is worth the risk. 



"The Book of Questions" by Gregory Stock, PhD.

Saturday, November 3, 2012

Now What?

 
Question:

So say I lived in that fabulous house in Tuscany, with untold wealth, a gorgeous, adoring mate, and a full staff of servants...then what?


Answer:
 I would love and live life.  I would do all those things I've always wanted to do, but couldn't afford.  My desires aren't really about "having all the things!", but more about "doing all the things!".   Here are some of the things I would do:

1.  Take my kids to Disneyland, finally!   Stay at the hotel there, and gorge ourselves on the place. 
2.  If my kids enjoy Disneyland, do a tour of the other theme parks like it.
3.  Take a couple years and be a tourist in every state. 
4.  Take a couple years to travel and be a tourist in every country. (Well, most of them.  Not the hostile ones!)
5.  Take classes.  Some subjects I'd want to study:  psychology, sociology, horticulture, creative writing, personal fitness & health
6.  Hire a personal trainer and get into the best shape of my life!
7.  Take bellydancing classes.
8.  Take singing lessons.
9.  (This one actually does involve "buying stuff") Build the most amazing, equipped underground bunker to rival the government.  I could house a small community down there.
10. Have my dream garden.
11.  Be able to pursue all my hobbies and potential hobbies without worrying about being able to afford the supplies! 

Those are things I would do for me, personally.  However, most of my enjoyment would come from being able to help others.  I would spoil the hell out of my family and friends, including that full staff of servants! (And I would not call them "servants"!  What a horrible sounding word.).  I would donate time and money to local community-building organizations like the library (of course), shelters, food banks, etc.   I would love to be the person who could show up at places and randomly pay off someone's bill.

Yeah, I've thought about this a time or two.   =)

Thursday, November 1, 2012

Really, Truly?

Question:

Really truly: Is this what I want to be doing?

Answer:
 What a complex question.  I mean, at first glance, it seems rather simple.  Is this what I want to be doing, really?  A "yes" or "no" question.  But if things were that simple, I wouldn't be such the basket-case that I've always been.

Because the answer is both "yes" and "no". 

The "no":
   The life I'm living is no where near the life that I wanted to live.  I made so many stupid mistakes, stupid decisions, took stupid paths.  I like to try and think that I learned from each of them;  That I've used them to grow.   But the truth of the matter is I haven't.  Not until maybe recently.  And that is still iffy... whether or not that was my one wise choice, or just another stupid one.

  For awhile I thought that what I wanted was a high paying job, a couple of kids, a husband.  I wanted the big house, the fancy cars.  Nothing extravagant, mind you.  But very comfortable.  I was always smart in school, and my biggest stupid thought was that because I was smart in school, I was destined to get all of those things I thought I wanted.

  Well, I got the husband and the couple of kids.  This is where things got really complicated.

Because then I discovered two very conflicting desires within me:   After having my kids, I discovered that what I really wanted was to be a stay-at-home-mom.  I know many parents feel that once their child is born, but this went deeper.  I discovered that I loved it.  I loved keeping the house in order, planning and preparing meals for my family, helping the kids learn and grow.  When I had to go back to work, I became more and more despondent about it.  I had found where my heart was.

 I was able to do this eventually, because my husband made enough money to allow it.  It was amazing.  However, it was short lived.  Because the other side of that desire was the discovery that I did not want a husband.  At the time, I thought it was just "that" husband, but as time has shown me, I think it is any husband.  I would be okay with a guy for a couple/few years, but then my heart would change.  There would still be love, but not romantic love.  Eventually it would turn into a resentment.  It wasn't the type of falling out of love that could be remedied, either.  It's just how I've always been.

So:  wanting to be a stay-at-home-mom/housewife, but without a husband... LOL

Which brings me to my sort-of "yes":

   I finally had an epiphany; One that had been trying to push its way to the forefront of my mind for many years now, but finally made its full appearance.   I think the reason that I am unable to completely love someone is because I do not love myself.  It sounds so horribly cliche, but I understand the cliche now.  I may have mentioned this before, but I have not been alone since I was fourteen.  This, I believe, has stunted me.  I never allowed myself to grow up- not as me.  I grew as whatever would work for everyone else.  Not that anyone else knew this was happening, or forced/coerced me to do so.  It is just in my nature to mold myself to be of most use to someone else.  I forgot to also mold myself to be most useful to me. In not knowing who I am, how to accept myself, how to be myself, and how to love myself, how I can I possibly expect to know how to really love anyone else?  How can I expect to devote myself long-term to someone when I am not even willing to do that for myself?  How can I know what I want out of a relationship, out of another person, if I do not even know what I want from myself?

So, I've devoted myself to that.  That thought, that promise of self-devotion, is actually what started this blog here.  Just the idea of questioning different areas of myself- regardless of how small or trivial they might be- to see where my brain lies. To put out honest answers to honest questions to see where my thoughts lie.

So, "no", I am not living the life I truly want, but I am in the process of figuring out just what it is I do want, and how to get there. 

Wednesday, October 31, 2012

Haunted House




Question:
  Do you believe in ghosts or evil spirits?  Would you be willing to spend the night in a remote house that is supposedly haunted?

Answer:

Long answer short
Yes, I do believe, and hell yes I would.

Short answer long

 I do believe in ghosts and spirits.  Even "evil" spirits;  Not, however, in the sense of the Devil and Hell.  Just like there are evil people alive in this world, I believe that some spirits retain that after they pass.  I believe in reincarnation, but I also believe there are many different layers, or "realms" if you will, that are a part of the reincarnations.  Sometimes I think the veil between these layers can become thin.  I also believe in a form of "guardian angel".  I think that in between lifetimes, there can be something of a "waiting period".  In this waiting period, I think that the soul retains memory of all the lifetimes it has lived, and can "touch" us down here, helping to guide in times of need, lend comfort, etc..  These, and instances like them, are where our "ghosts" come from. 

My beliefs on life, death, reincarnation, and the whole cycle behind it all is a bit complex.  It may wind up as a post of its own, eventually.  =)

As for the haunted house, there would be no difficulty in convincing me to stay at one.  As a matter of fact, one of the things I would love to do eventually (I'm thinking after retirement, just for time's sake) is to take a trip of the country and stay only in reportedly haunted sites.  I do not fear entities that visit us or remain here in our realm.  I think the danger mostly lies within our own minds, and with our inner fears;  Not with the spirit itself, regardless of how tricky they are. 









"The Book of Questions" by Gregory Stock, PH.D.